Body Image

Guess what?!?!?! I have a problem... The funny thing is, I'm pretty sure I have the OPPOSITE problem than most women have, I have a pretty healthy body image of myself :-S LOL No, really!!! I mean, I don't think I have a great body, but I don't think I'm (that) fat either, and that doesn't help me working out :-D

When I met my husband we weighted about the same, and he's 6'2"!!!!! Now I've lost more than 30 Lbs. (mostly because I wasn't fitting into some of the clothes I liked and then because I wanted to look better for the wedding, and the compliments from people didn't hurt either), but I want to loose a bit more because I'm still oficially overweight and it's hard to get motivated when you don't think you look that bad :-D

I think a lot has to do with how I was raised, in my house grades were always more important than fashion or beauty, my mom never used a lot of makeup (only lipstick and blush as far as I remember) nor high heels (she was a kids size 2!!!) and she never really had, I don't know how to say it, a good/healthy body, maybe? And she was also very oblivious to that kind of stuff, i.e. while watching TV I would say "wow that dress is beautiful" and she would answer something like "What dress??? Was that girl wearing a dress???" :-) So you'll most likely NEVER hear me say something like "I'm so fat" or "my hair looks like crap" or stuff like that (but maybe that's also why I'm terrible at giving or receiving compliments), not because I don't think about it once in a while or because I don't like my legs but because who cares (besides myself)??? And in general, I feel pretty confident when I'm not looking at myself in the mirror LOL The funny thing is, now I think I'm "fatter" than when I was really overweight :-S But any way, it's no like I don't think I could loose some weight, it's just that my body has always been great to me and being at a higher weight has never prevented me from having fun, dancing and flirting (when I was single), so I definitely think it's more about confidence than anything else.

Any way... I'm not sure if this is a rant or what... Just something that I wanted to blog about... I haven't been going out a lot since John got sick, then I got a bad cold and then I had severe allergies for about 2 weeks that had me exhausted every day, so I just need to get motivated and get out there to walk the dogs at least!!! And now that it's getting warm is the perfect time to start, right??? :-)

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Que creen??? Tengo un problema... Y lo chistoso es que estoy casi segura de que es el problema OPUESTO a la mayoria de las mujeres, y el problema es que tengo una imagen corporal sana jajaja... No, de verdad!!! O sea, no quiereo decir que creo que tengo un cuerpazo, pero tampoco creo que estoy super gorda, y eso no ayuda a motivarme para hacer ejercicio :-)

Cuando conoci a mi esposo pesabamos casi lo mismo, y eso que el mide 1.88 metros!!! Y aunque he bajado mas de 15 kilos desde entonces (principalmente porque no me quedaba ropa que me gustaba y luego porque me queria ver bien en la boda, y los cumplidos de la gente tampoco eran desagradables), pero quiero bajar mas porque oficialmente todavia tengo oficialmente todavia tengo sobrepeso y es dificil motivarte a ti misma cuando piensas que no te ves tan mal :-D

Yo creo que tiene mucho que ver con la manera en la que fui criada, y a que en mi casa las calificaciones siempre fueron mas importantes que la moda o la apariencia, mi mama nunca uso mucho maquillaje (si recuerdo bien nada mas se ponia lipstick y rubor) y tampoco usaba tacones (ella usaba zapatos talla 2 de ninia!!!) y nunca tuvo, como lo dire, un cuerpo bueno/saludable, tal vez? Y como que tambien le valian ese tipo de cosas, por ejemplo, si estabamos viendo la tele y yo decia algo como "ese vestido esta super fregon" ella hubiera dicho "Cual vestido??? A esa muchacha traia puesto un vestido???" :-) Asi que probablemente NUNCA me oigan decir algo como "estoy gorda" o "el pelo se me ve mal" o algo similar (pero tal vez tambien por eso soy super mala para dar o recibir alhagos), no porque no piense de vez en cuando que deberia bajar de peso o que tengo piernas gachas sino porque a quien le importa (a parte de mi)??? Y en general me siento segura de mi misma cuando no me estoy viendo al espejo jajaja... Y lo mas gracioso es que ahora me siento "mas gorda" que cuando en realidad tenia mas sobrepeso :-S Pero no es como que no piense que si me serviria bajar de peso, es mas bien que pienso que mi cuerpo siempre me ha hecho un paro y no me ha evitado bailar, divertirme y coquetear (cuando era soltera), asi que definitivamente creo que es mas acerca de estar seguro de uno mismo que de la apariencia real.

Bueno, no estoy segura si esto era queja o que... simplemente tenia ganas de escribir al respecto... No he salido desde que a John le dio gripa, y luego yo me enferme y despues de eso me dio alergia gacho 2 semanas y me sentia sin nada de energia, asi que necesito por lo menos volver a sacar a las perras a caminar!!! Y ahorita que esta empezando a hacer calor es el tiempo perfecto para empezar, verdad???